The purest actualization of every calling or vocation in God’s kingdom will be accompanied by the dread of one’s personal weakness. This terrifying confrontation of ineptitude is not fully realized from conceptual or doctrinal acknowledgments (i.e. “When I am weak He is strong!”), ministerial preparation, or biblical studies of the cross (though these have their place) but is encountered in those unplanned, drawn-out, existential crises that can leave the human life fetal on the bedroom floor. There is no short-cut or ‘mario whistle’ to arriving at weakness in God, it must be divinely revealed and then courageously accepted.
To be weak in God is not a dismissal of one’s unique giftings and dreams but their relinquishing to His maximal ends. Weakness acknowledges God’s jurisdiction to utilize or shelve one’s preferred abilities and pursuits, and in doing so, respects His fathomless control. The dread in these humbling encounters is the perpetual introduction to a God much larger than one expected, and a self much emptier than planned.
If a vocation is deplete of weakness it is not strong enough for kingdom work. No matter the ministerial success or credentials or bounteous bookshelves of John Maxwell and Joel Osteen, without weakness the agent of God is a dim reflection of his/her effervescent potential. We were created to be angled mirrors – to reflect God into God’s world (Wright, paraphrase). At the summit of every unique calling is a human prostrated, cascading unparalleled light.
Crises and disillusionment will come, when they do, embrace your weakness and burrow into the Almighty who is always grandeur than what is favorably estimated.